Summer Of 09'

Ugh ! This summer for me was ruined. I expected it to go sooooooo well. But then i ran into an ex and it got horrible ! from there. Well we been through ALOT ! We have been off in on since 05. I did really love him. He was my everything i put everyone after him. I believed all his lies, put his flaws aside, and took all of this shit ! I knew he wasn't faithful to me but i didn't care. I acted like i didnt even know. He played with my head so bad. I use to feel like i couldnt be with out him, like i couldnt live with out him. I use to be soo suicidal over him. Then one day i thought out somethings (im gonna skip dat part for right now ! i wanna give it its own blog lol) But yeah that happened and it changed everything. I started to not even care about him anymore. I lost every bit of love i had for him. So i left then he kept begging to be in my life. But i didnt care it was like everything changed my heart, mind, body & soul. It was like i just caught a site of reality like (what the hell is wrong with me !) Soo recently i have been trying to recover. I want to start therapy in all that !